Hippie
New Year beautiful brothers and sisters!
Gabe and
I hope you all had a groovy Christmas/ Hanukkah/ Kwanzaa/ Holidays/
Whatever it is you celebrate. (We hope you celebrated something, even
if it's just bein' alive.)
Gabe and
I had a cool holiday... when we spent it alone. Gabe saw his family
and I saw mine, but it's always reeeeally awkward because his family
don't want to be around me, and my family can't stand it when Gabe
comes around. So yeah, we spent Christmas day in our own little
world... we got a chicken dinner to eat home, cuddled on the couch
and watched movies (the Grinch (Gabe's choice) and Charlie Brown
(mine)) Gabe gave me these groovy earrings with shiny red stones in
'em... I gave him an African bracelet (handmade). Plus there were
chocolates and other cool stuff. We just lazed around and relaxed. So
it was hip that way, but on the other hand it was real rough because
of the whole tension with family thing. I guess you could say
Christmas was an upper and a downer.
So for
New Years' it was pretty much the same gig... we hung out and loved
on each other, and had some pretty heavy conversations too.
Don't
think for a second that we don't have struggles, being in a
May-December relationship. I'm faced with the fact that Gabe's not
always going to be here... and that kills me because I just don't see
how I can live without him. And it kills Gabe because no matter how
many times I tell him we're groovy, he sometimes wonders if I would
be better off with a partner closer in age.
So yeah,
we deal with heavy stuff all the time. We did a little gig in a cafe
for New Year's Eve, which was cool because we had some really
beautiful brothers and sisters that we know from the music biz
stopping by. The only thing that was a bummer was how many times Gabe
got asked, "Hey man, is this your daughter?" I wanna go out
and get a shirt printed that says, "I'm His Lover, Not His Daughter."
And then
there's today...
First
Sunday of the new year, so Gabe and I rapped about going to church.
We don't usually, but I guess we figured it was be a hip time to go.
You know, new year, fresh start, love and peace, all that... well,
there weren't no love and peace in that church. Oh it started out OK,
lots of smiles and "glad to see you"s... mostly from people
who spread gossip about us when we first got together. Then it kind
went bummer from there. People asking nosy questions like, "So
are you two married yet?" "Oh, you're *still* together?"
and other snide stuff... I stuck it out for a while, till I noticed
that Gabe got up to use the john and didn't come back in. I
waited around and then slipped out when everyone stood up to sing a
hymn. I went out and found Gabe crying in the truck. People don't
realize that my man has a real soft heart and gets hurt pretty quick.
He said someone pulled him aside with "concern for his soul"
and told him that we were "sinning against God" by living
together and that Gabe was "defiling me" 'cause I'm a
younger woman.
Well, we
left... I mean, everyone can have their own opinion, but to just go
preach to someone that you don't even know, only heard about from
gossip, well, that's low. A real bummer. I told Gabe today that I'm
not going back there again.... bunch of nosy, do-gooder, hate-filled
hypocrites. That's not to say that all churches are like that... I've
been in some cool ones... but there isn't a one around here that
hasn't heard about Gabe and me and automatically decided that we're
wrong without even listening to our side of the story. How we support
each other, make each other laugh, hold each other when we cry, act
silly together, have serious raps about stuff, work together, act
young and free together, how we make each other better people.
I told
Gabe the other day that I can understand why gay people have such a
hard time of it in church... it's so rough to be labeled before cats
even know you, man.
So
yeah... I've said before that we're down with Jesus as our Spiritual Master... but it looks like His people don't wanna accept us so I
guess we'll just have to follow Him in our own way.
Love and
sunshine to all of you beautiful people!
Peace
out!
